Dear Soul who is reading 

I decided today to finally share my thoughts and my story with you dear incarnated conciousness, that you are.

Its a story about the wanderer, the seeker,about duality and the overcome into unconcditional Love.

Its a stroy about coming home.

Its a story that shall be told.

You are - You are the sum of everything imaginable. 

I started my life 41 jears ago, in Germany, Nuernberg.

The City where 2 powerful Ley Lines meet, at the Kaiserburg zu Nürnberg. In the Margaretenkapelle.

What a holy Place.

 

In this city i was thrown into the Abyss, into the Valley of death and darkness.

 

Well....

 

Lets walk the Way

 

I incarnated there 2 weeks late, on may 30th in the year 1983 after christ walked earth.

A powerful constellation on that day. 

When i once met an elder, a grandmother she made a numerologic calculation of my name and birth date.

She never told me what she calculated. She became very quiet and still.

It seemed hope she felt. Hope. 

She felt Ahava.

Ahava, is Hebrew and means Love, in the sense of hope, of confidence, in the sense of Faith.

I had a very beautiful early childhood. My Parents had several beergardens in Nürnberg.

I was in the middle of the pack, a puppie having the time of his life. Everyone was my friend, darkness did not exist. Trust and curiosity were my attributes.

After we moved to a suburb of Nürnberg, Oberasbach, more brown than colourful, darkness came into my life.

I remember the dreams.

In one that repeated again and again i was hiding ona  medieveal funeral pile pleace.

everywhere burning man, no woman. Knights burning.

In the bag were something, i had to hide it.

I was running from one funeral pile to another, hiding from the eye.

WTF...

In another dream many black wearing shapes with scream masks ( long before scream entered the cinemas and the archetyp mask was put into the collective conciousness of humans), were rounding our house and pointing their fingers on me.

Darkness recognized me.

Oh yes. 

We would dance later on the way.

For many jears people pushed me to go public and make a YT Channel or tik tok or something.

But i never felt it.

I was able to reach the mountain top, but the prize was high, my mind kinda exploded when i got back into this shared collective materialistic reality.

When you re on the higher realms everything makes kinda sense.

Theres no seperation - life is conciousness and conciousness is universal and the duality of seperation.

Connection.

But...this is just the gate to leave the illusion into Love.

There are no words in the languages i know that can describe it. Maybe the tibtian people know words for this state of mind. I do not at this time.

its full of experience, everything is everywhere at the same time, though time is just part of the illusion of duality.

Do get me right. I do not judge the dual world, not at all..

Its a great place to experience life in a very pure way. Pain and mental suffering, this is interesting state of mind. full of emotion, but with a lack of control. 

Chaos, inner and outer chaos which leads to balance and so harmony.

This is cool but very different to Love.

Love does not mean this romantic feeling, we experience in dual reality.

Its different. Its more complete oneness to life. Realizing to be one part of an enermous web, the web of life.

I don t like people, mostly celebrities that write their life books with mid thirty or in the fourtys.

Let this be a retrospective. 

This is not the end, its the beginning.

This is a german hiphop song from the 90s.

Really important for me that days.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVJ9r0bWtuI

Peace be with you - Frodo was the Underdoge